avalanche

avalanche.

noun. a mass of snow, ice and rock that falls down the side of a mountain.

an emotional avalanche happened today. the cumulation of the past weeks' events took to the stage, showcasing their final run that will leave the audience in a state of disillusionment.

lighting sparks have lit fires and tears worth buckets have made minutes stretch into hours. certain instances were caught in snapshots of flash and memory, firmly engraving their presence in the mind and soul. miss nocturnal wakes up in the early afternoons, only to indulge in a rampage of food, bickerings, sight-seeing and love. days pass in a snap of the fingers. there is no end to this, i realize. reality strikes. darkness always looms in unwavering clouds, and the rays of sunlight struggle to get through. and they do.

the best moments in life are experienced without realization.

when we let the little gems slip past our grasp, the realm of despair has never seemed more real. we abuse our own sanity. it's both disheartening and amusing to see how we stray from our values and principles so easily. how we falter without trying, how we let ourselves down time and time again. we want to resist temptation, but the degree of resistance is feeble. guilt runs high, but yet the implications result in inaction. maybe the drive in us has been broken one too many times. maybe we're all weak and vulnerable inside. i break so easily i forget how it is like to stand up anymore.

i dont regret coming to melbourne. i may not be the happiest of souls, but i pray i will come out of this city stronger.